WHAT WAS I AFRAID OF?

NETTIE-ISM I was afraid of the silliest things!

I once said I was an introvert and the person I was speaking to did not believe me, but I was. I masked my true self pretending I was an extrovert. The truth is: I was doing it afraid!

Today I was using my embroidery machine and I started laughing at myself. To think that I was so afraid to use this man made thing. True I had tested the waters and made a few designs, I even showed my grandson, my granddaughter and my daughter how to use the machine.

I think when I was showing my daughter how to use the machine and realized I had done a few things incorrectly was when it happened. I had cleaned all of my machines the week before and had put the bobbin case in wrong- this lead to my daughter’s stitches being non-existent and messing up her project.  All I had to do was fist the bobbin and all was well.
I decided to embroider a blouse I had made but could not wear. As I was placing the last color in the machine I looked up to see my 5 Sewing Challenges for 2018. Challenge #1 Monogrammed Blouse. This was bigger than my initials on a shirt!

What was I afraid of? I was afraid of making a mistake and, guess what? I did! Had my fear gone?

I wanted to do a personal fundraiser, my granddaughter needs a tablet for school and I was going to ask my siblings to help me cover the cost of this $600 machine. Should I call each one, there are 8; and when do I call? I decided to write a letter and email it to each one. Is that the cowards way out? No! It is the way everyone gets the same information. But not everyone reads their emails right away! Which is why I sent text messages to all of them - they all read their text messages.

Overcoming fear is not in the doing it is in the starting. That is what I realized when I was working with my embroidery machine today. It may take a while for me to finish, especially if I do something wrong like putting the bobbin casing in the machine wrong, but I will finish it.

The same is true for my granddaughter’s tablet. I started the process of raising money and she will get her tablet, of that I am certain!

What else am I afraid of? I don’t have time for fear, I have to much to do!                                           
                                                                                           written by Marsha L F Randolph


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